The Healing Power of Songs

I dedicate this blog and this song to my wife who endured four extremely difficult years post prostate cancer surgery.

After my surgery, my Surgeon assured us that the sparing of my two nerve bundles meant I’d recover my erectile functioning…..only it didn’t.

I discovered that every form of affection served a bitter reminder of what I lost. 

So I have up holding hands, physical touching, hugs and kisses. As if avoiding those things would help me forget that I lost my manhood. 

It didn’t!

Then I unilaterally decided the best thing I could do for my wife was to push her far away until she asked me for a divorce. I had another (selfish) motive as well. 

I wanted to protect myself from feeling betrayed. I was convinced it was inevitable my wife would fall into the arms of a fulling functioning man. I wanted to control that process to avoid another hurt.

Of course I kept this fear, and my goal to blow up our marriage to myself. I failed in my goal to blow up our marriage because my wife was fiercely determined to save our marriage. 

We needed additional help. I was too embarrassed to discuss my reactions to erectile dysfunction with a counselor!

In the end, my resistance was no match for my wife’s persistence. We received help from counseling and the Author of forgiveness our Lord and Savior. 

This song is my story and I pray it’s yours as well as you navigate the treacherous roads of coping with erectile dysfunction.

Here are the lyrics of:

Unbroken

By Joel Smallbone

Until today I believed

Without a doubt

I had gone down this road

Way too far

To turn around

I carry the weight of the past

On my back

Till' the day I die

But thanks to you

Now I realize

Every lie that's been told

Can be untold

And every soul that's been sold

Can be unsold

And every angry word that's been spoke

Can be unspoken

And every heart

That's been broke

Can be unbroken

I know that it takes a lot of guts

To tell the truth

And a heart won't be fixed overnight

When it's broke in two

You never gave up on me

Even though I kept pushing you away

You showed me how

It's not too late to change

Yeah...

And every lie that's been told

Can be untold

And every soul that's been sold

Can be unsold

And every angry word that's been spoke

Can be unspoken

And every heart

That's been broke

Can be unbroken

Be forgiven

It's never too late to be forgiven

Yeah, Ye-ah!

Cause every lie that's been told

Can be untold

And every soul that's been sold

Can be unsold

And every angry word that's been spoke

Can be unspoken

And every heart

That's been broke can be unbroken

Yeah can be unbroken 

If this song blessed you in any way, share it with your partner and anyone else that comes to mind.

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A New Year

 It’s 2022! 

What a privilege it is to grow old with my sweet wife.I remember when I subscribed to “youth’s universal illusion of immortality.”

In those days, I assumed I had decades of New Year’s Eves to celebrate.

Now, I’ve reached an age where I no longer assume I’ll be around to celebrate 2023.  

Maybe I will, maybe I won’t.

Some may think I’ve become morbid. 

Not me! I think I’ve finally aligned myself with reality. 

One of my go to Bible verses is this:                          Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.                                                                              ~ Psalm 90:12~

When Jesus knew he had 24 hours left to live, he did what was most important to him.

He said to his disciples:                                                Then He said to them, “With fervent desire I have desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer;                      ~ Luke 22:15~

On his last day on earth, Jesus was mindful to do the will of his Father in Heaven. Not only on his last day; every day.                                                                                May that be said about all of us!                                 Happy 2022!