I dedicate this blog and this song to my wife who endured four extremely difficult years post prostate cancer surgery.
After my surgery, my Surgeon assured us that the sparing of my two nerve bundles meant I’d recover my erectile functioning…..only it didn’t.
I discovered that every form of affection served a bitter reminder of what I lost.
So I have up holding hands, physical touching, hugs and kisses. As if avoiding those things would help me forget that I lost my manhood.
It didn’t!
Then I unilaterally decided the best thing I could do for my wife was to push her far away until she asked me for a divorce. I had another (selfish) motive as well.
I wanted to protect myself from feeling betrayed. I was convinced it was inevitable my wife would fall into the arms of a fulling functioning man. I wanted to control that process to avoid another hurt.
Of course I kept this fear, and my goal to blow up our marriage to myself. I failed in my goal to blow up our marriage because my wife was fiercely determined to save our marriage.
We needed additional help. I was too embarrassed to discuss my reactions to erectile dysfunction with a counselor!
In the end, my resistance was no match for my wife’s persistence. We received help from counseling and the Author of forgiveness our Lord and Savior.
This song is my story and I pray it’s yours as well as you navigate the treacherous roads of coping with erectile dysfunction.
Here are the lyrics of:
Unbroken
By Joel Smallbone
Until today I believed
Without a doubt
I had gone down this road
Way too far
To turn around
I carry the weight of the past
On my back
Till' the day I die
But thanks to you
Now I realize
Every lie that's been told
Can be untold
And every soul that's been sold
Can be unsold
And every angry word that's been spoke
Can be unspoken
And every heart
That's been broke
Can be unbroken
I know that it takes a lot of guts
To tell the truth
And a heart won't be fixed overnight
When it's broke in two
You never gave up on me
Even though I kept pushing you away
You showed me how
It's not too late to change
Yeah...
And every lie that's been told
Can be untold
And every soul that's been sold
Can be unsold
And every angry word that's been spoke
Can be unspoken
And every heart
That's been broke
Can be unbroken
Be forgiven
It's never too late to be forgiven
Yeah, Ye-ah!
Cause every lie that's been told
Can be untold
And every soul that's been sold
Can be unsold
And every angry word that's been spoke
Can be unspoken
And every heart
That's been broke can be unbroken
Yeah can be unbroken
If this song blessed you in any way, share it with your partner and anyone else that comes to mind.
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