A Question of Balance

I’m a quick fix kind of guy. If there’s a problem, and a known solution, (especially if it involves duct tape or goop) I want the fix to occur and problem solved ASAP.

What I’ve learned about knee joint replacement surgery is the “fix” to the problem (surgery) takes under two hours.

To heal from the “fix” takes months.                       *Worse-There are no shortcuts.                               *Worser-neither duct tape or goop is useful.               *Worst of all- I’ve lost mobility, access to the second story of our house, and the ability to drive a car, and to stand for more than ten minutes at a time.                               Progress is  measured literally in inches rather than feet or miles.But if I’ve learned anything in 17 surgeries it’s these two lessons:                                                                                        

#1 Celebrate every small milestone or step towards healing even if the step is measured in inches.    

#2. Look for humor EVERYWHERE 

So my most recent celebrations:

•I can walk down the two steps to I can access and enjoy our backyard.                                                                      •I can walk up and down our front entryway so walks in the neighborhood becomes possible WHEN I can tolerate standing for more than a few minutes.

These changes are worth celebrating.

As far as humor goes, yesterday I was walking (with my walker) down the steps and down our driveway. I was blasting the theme song from the movie Chariots of Fire, as I hobbled down the driveway (wondering if the angle would be to steep for me to return to the house) I bumped into a neighbor who got a kick of the choice of my music to hobble down the driveway.

After sharing a laugh, she said: “You need to do this using the theme song from Rocky.”

I said: “You missed it. That was yesterday!”       Another time to laugh!                                                                      

When Brenda and I watch movies we are looking for either faith-based, or comedies. Murder mystery movies are out! Watching a lot of news is out as well.

As I take the next three months to recover, and go to out-patient physical therapy, I want to spend the next three months laughing and celebrating as much as possible!

That said, I’m not using denial. On nights I’m kept awake most of the night because of pain, or when I feel both bad and sad I can’t sleep in my own bed, I give myself permission to feel and grieve these losses.

Verses from Ecclesiastes 3 come to mind:

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens……. a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance.

Faith doesn’t forbid you from weeping or mourning. In fact our Lord cares so much about us in our suffering that:           

You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.    ~Psalm 56:8~                                                                                                                                        Faith also provides wonderful reasons to experience joy, gratitude, grace, celebration, and laughter.

So the next three months will be filled with both laughter and tears, but I suspect the scales will tip heavily on the side of joy, gratitude, grace, celebration, and laughter.

How does this relate to life post prostatectomy?

Grieve the loss of

Urinary control 

Life in diapers 

Grieve unwelcome the changes in your erectile functioning 

Grieve the loss of your sex drive

Celebrate when your catheter is removed

Celebrate if you’ve learned to live in diapers without leaking 

Celebrate when you move from diapers to pads.

The scales after prostate surgery tip heavily on the side of negativity, which is why the ability to celebrate and laugh are vitally important. 

Rick Redner and his wife Brenda Redner wrote an award winning comprehensive guide to the physical, personal, spiritual, and relational issues, every man, and couple, will face before and after prostate surgery. The title of their book is:

I Left My Prostate in San Francisco-Where's Yours? 

After four years of coping with erectile dysfunction after double nerve sparing surgery,  Rick & Brenda decided to share their experiences with devastating effects of erectile dysfunction; which led to a loss of self-esteem, and marital conflict.

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